A beautiful, heart opening book with practical and inner guidance to help you find the light and the peaceful center within, in the middle of a loss or another life transition. In lucid, poetic language Helena shows, step-by-step, that there is hope and that our most difficult challenges can become openings into what Einstein called the larger circulation of love. Each chapter offers healing for different aspects of the grief process and contains a guided meditation to help you on your personal journey. On May 3:rd, 2001, Jon Montelius died from an accidental overdose, shortly after his twenty-first birthday. In her fourth book his mother shares the story of a unique young man and her journey out of the dark hole that is all parents' worst fear. Faced with her most intense spiritual and emotional challenge she used meditation, witnessing the breath, witnessing with compassion, and other simple spiritual practices, inspired by Buddhist and Zen teachings, to embrace and transform her excruciating emotions. Jon Walks in the Light is not so much about how to get over grief and move on; rather it describes how to move inward and allow the process of transformation and awakening that naturally occurs in our times of loss and grief. Being present in the moment, opening to love beyond form and inquiring with self-compassion into painful thoughts are the themes of this book. Jon's death, a year after his little sister leah was born, ultimately became another birth for Helena, an awakening into a new life of presence and resting in the deeper, immortal essence. Contents: 1. ADVENTURE, FRIENDSHIP, SERVICE AND JOY: The story of Jon's short and full life. 2. REVELATIONS IN THE PROCESS OF BIRTH AND DEATH: My first year of grief and bliss 3. WE HAD MADE OUR LOVE IMMORTAL: Expanding into love beyong form 4. WITNESSING SPIRIT LEAVING FORM: Jon returning to essence 5. SURRENDER AND PURIFICATION: The death of everything false 6. THE EMPTINESS AFTER MY BELOVED SON: Entering the sacred void 7. FACING THE GUILT GHOST: seeing through stories of blame, shame and guilt 8. CONNECTING WITH DIRECT KNOWING: Seeing clearly what is 9. PRACTISING GRATITUDE: Embracing grace and beauty 10.DRUGS: Fulfilling young people's spiritual longing?